My 55th Favorite Song of All-Time

is:

“Fell on Black Days” by Soundgarden

I’m actually not a very big Soundgarden fan, nor do I find “Fell on Black Days” to be especially gratifying as a song.  But on one specific occasion in my life, it may have kept me from just plain old losing my mind.

The story itself is far from interesting.  It was about 3/4 of the way through my alcoholic drinking, and things had just started to really fall apart around me.  I essentially had no place to live, my body was shutting down, and I was fading out of contact with a lot of my loved ones.  Then on this particular day, I was leaving my mom’s apartment in Dillsburg to go to work in Carlisle (about a 15-20 minute drive) and my car wouldn’t start.  This just seemed pretty horrible at the time.  I wasn’t yet fully aware of the fact that my dependence on alcohol was ruining my life, but this day aided in the dawning of the realization.

I called work and told them of my issue, and the main boss said he would come get me and even arrange for a ride home.  This is slightly before the age of everyone having cell phones and GPSs, so we had to do the let-me-tell-you-while-you-write-it-down directions, and it wasn’t an easy trip.

I stood outside on the sidewalk by the road for 20-25 minutes waiting for him.  I was very close to slipping into a serious depression about my life in general, when this song somehow popped into my head.  I didn’t know any of the lyrics except the chorus, but somehow it seemed a comfort as I kept replaying it in my mind.  Sure, the song itself is depressing, but it felt nice to know that other people had, well, fell on black days.  Throughout the rest of my trying times (in the parlance of my blog, before the fire), the song was always in the back of my head, telling me I wasn’t alone.  And the phrasing, fell on black days, seems to imply there is something less bad after them.

 

 

 

 

5 Responses to “My 55th Favorite Song of All-Time”

  1. I dont know the song but I liked your explanation of the story behind how you came to like it.

  2. Long time commenter, first time reader…

    Hahahahaha oh man.

    I love the crap out of this song and the album it is on. Like, there isn’t a single lame song on the album and it’s like a full 80 minute album. I feel about this album like some people feel about a Beatles album. Not that I dislike the Beatles.

    Great story too. It’s crazy how simply remembering a song, even if you hardly know the words, can seem like your life is starting over. You know what a big fan I am of bringing boys to the yard. Imagine my delight when I remembered the song “Milkshake” after years of yard-bringing!

    • sethdellinger Says:

      haha you are one funny bastard.

      I’ve never even heard the album this is on. It’s not like I actively dislike Soundgarden, I just don’t find them very interesting. Most of the songs sort of stay the same, like 4 minutes of the same riff. Luckily, it was that aspect of this song that allowed it to populate my head at the moment I needed it most!

  3. The album is a true gift to the world. I can see why this song would connect with you so much. I always connected to Limo Wreck and “I’m the wreck of you, I’m the death of you all”

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