Archive for October, 2011

Red Portrait

Posted in Prose, Snippet with tags , , , on October 27, 2011 by sethdellinger

Last night she came to me, the dead woman I loved once: but she came as she is in the photo, that Christmas, wearing a red dress, and her lipstick was red (I wonder if that means she lives in Hell), and I saw again that she was beautiful, the same jutting jawline that I have, the same crooked nose, and the exact same age; I saw we could be siblings.  And now I was talking fast to her, because I knew I had no time, and I told her I loved her, I told her how her life had informed mine, and I begged her to come to me again, to my lonely cold apartment and its dusty bookshelves.  I said to her—my work, see what I have made, I have tried to do what you did not live to do.  But she smiled at me and began to fade.

Shit Dying

Posted in Photography with tags , on October 26, 2011 by sethdellinger

 

 

 

 

Strange Quirks

Posted in Snippet, Uncategorized with tags , , on October 24, 2011 by sethdellinger

I make no secret of the fact that I really, at this point in my life, have little-to-no desire to be in a relationship.  This is, most likely, because something is wrong with me, but whatever.  That’s not what this post is about.  But I promise it’s true: I really have no desire to date anyone (although I stop short of saying “never again”).

A few weeks or a month ago, I was reading an article somewhere about the internet company Yahoo, and how they were failing despite having a multitude of sites and featues available that at first glance, it would seem many users would benefit from.  So out of curiosity, I surfed on over there.  And they DO have a ton of channels (and I was reminded that I’ve been using their movie-showing-times feature for years).  I clicked around a few times just to see what this ghost town was like.  Finance, Shopping, Sports.  It was a fairly nice and helpful site.

Then I clicked on Dating.  Just to see what it was like.  As I said, I have no interest in dating.  Now, I am not opposed to online dating.  I have tried it myself more than a few times, even shelling out big bucks over the course of a whole year once for eHarmony.  I really just wanted to see what could possibly be going on—in Erie—at this supposedly failing ghost town website.  Of course, the site (which is apparently a hybrid of Yahoo and Match.com, which Yahoo owns) basically makes you set up an account just to do a search for people in your area.  I was annoyed by this but just casually sped through the process, having no actual interest in getting dates out of the profile.

So I set up my quickie, no-thought profile, checked out the site for a minute or two, and moved on.  But the next day, they started pouring in.  Winks, nudges, private messages.  Match.com sends me an e-mail every time a woman interacts with my profile—and it’s happening a lot.  Every day, for weeks now, the women of the Erie Match.com seem to freaking looooove me.  Now, I can’t interact back, because you need a paid account to do so.  But they do link me to their accounts, and they are real women, no doubt about it.  And having done online dating before, I can tell you this level of attention is unusual.

You may be asking, why am I telling you this?  Because interestingly, this is the profile I created in a quick moment just in order to see the website.  I tried to make it shorter but they had a somewhat annoying minimum character limit.  I tried to be brutally honest about myself to AVOID interest:

Hey there!  I’m just a guy who hasn’t been in a relationship in, like, 5 years and has lived totally alone and developed all kinds of strange quirks that will probably keep me single my whole life.  I am overly opinionated on all sorts of things from art to politics to culture and this overbearing nature often makes me seem like a pretentious know-it-all, which I suppose I am.  I’m a recovering alcoholic (sober 8 years)…it’s not a big deal to me anymore but it seems to matter to women.  I don’t care how much you drink.  I quit smoking 2 years ago and I got fat and haven’t got unfat yet.  I’m short, too, although, despite all this, I think you’ll probably find me undeniably attractive.  I have the face of an angel.  A masculine angel.  I can’t stand sitting at home.  I have to be biking, or walking, or exploring things like historical sites or museums or what have you.  Although I do have a DVD collection so extensive, it’ll make your toes curl.  So go ahead, get in touch with me, let’s see if you can handle me.

 

Posted in Uncategorized on October 21, 2011 by sethdellinger

Believe Me

Posted in My Poetry with tags , on October 13, 2011 by sethdellinger

Believe me,
soon enough that boatman will be here
to carry you high and dry across
this river without a hint of light
except for the coin in your hand.
Stand up straight and tall as you can;
and if he should break the silence to speak,
smile and say nothing in reply.

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